Do you ever struggle with feeling out of place? Do you ever wonder if you were really meant to be in the plot of earth that you currently reside? In the fellowship, small group, MOPS meeting, Bible study etc.? Do you ever think to yourself, “I will never be as awesome as _______________”? Do you stand in the corner of the lobby after Sunday service and see people milling about and feel completely alone?
Guess what? I have really exciting news for you.
First of all, you’re not alone. I have recently become a part of an amazing tribe of hundreds women and if there is anything that we can all agree on, it’s that these feelings are our every day struggle. We are not enough but we have no problem telling the woman beside us that she is beyond enough. This group has really shown me something that I’ve been told is true for a long time: We are all the same. I’m sure that if you stuck 800 women in a room together who’d only met once or twice, we would pull into our respective comfort zones and feel judged by those around us all the while judging those around us for how judged we feel. But put us online in a safe place and the walls come down, and we can have some of the most honest, gut-wrenching conversations we’ve ever had.
I can’t help but think how many amazing women I have missed over the years because of my own insecurities and feelings of inadequacy.
Ready for the second and best part of the news? Here it is:
19 So now you Gentiles are no longer strangers and foreigners. You are citizens along with all of God’s holy people. You are members of God’s family. 20 Together, we are his house, built on the foundation of the apostles and the prophets. And the cornerstone is Christ Jesus himself. 21 We are carefully joined together in him, becoming a holy temple for the Lord. 22 Through him you Gentiles are also being made part of this dwelling where God lives by his Spirit.” – Eph 2:19-22 NLT
Go back and read it again.
I think I can safely say that there are moments when I definitely feel more Gentile than Jew — and I’m talking strictly in the context of this passage, no stereotypes or current day images allowed. In this context, while I’m standing in my corner of the lobby feeling alone, I am the lone Gentile and everyone else are the Jews, the chosen ones. But what does that verse say? That the Gentiles are citizens along with all of God’s holy people. There go the walls. We are members of God’s family. My favorite is verse 21: We are carefully joined. That means that there was thought put into where we are at. That means that God designed a place for us in that Bible study, or that small group, neighborhood or wherever it is that you feel the most uncomfortable in His family. We are His dwelling place, therefore, WE BELONG. He took care to carve a space for you.
I pray that today, the Father reveals to your heart the spot that he carved for you, the why behind it, and how you can be at peace in that place, and move in ways that stretch you and bring fulfillment to your heart. No more wall flowering allowed.
*This post is brought to you by the memory of Patrick Swayze, and North Village Church as they read through the book of Ephesians.*
*all photos found by Google Images*