Once upon a time I thought to myself, “I’m doing really good. God has done so much in my life, I don’t really have that many issues left to work through.”
I can hardly describe the work the Lord has been doing in my heart. Every morning when I sit down to have “Mommy Time,” I wonder if He’s really going to show up as powerful as He did the day before. I wonder, will I cry today?
ENTER THE TEARS.
The last 2 weeks have been some of the most intense of my life, and it’s all simply because I sit down and open my heart up to the Lord, rather than doing anything on my own. I haven’t opened my Bible in days, but God is speaking and moving and healing and I am OVER. WHELMED.
This morning as I was reflecting on all that He has been doing, I recognized that most of what we’re dealing with together revolves around my tumultuous teenage years. As I dredged up all that I have had to walk through about my past, I cried out to Him this morning and said, “How did that girl survive all of this?”
I was protecting her.
You guys, this is what a Father does. He protects His kids. That doesn’t mean that we don’t feel things, that we don’t suffer. I believe that if I had had the tools back then that I have now, I would have lived a more fulfilled life. But the fact that I didn’t doesn’t mean that those things got to destroy me. Yes they hurt, yes I have limped most of my adult life because of them, but not to the point of destruction. Only to the point where the only place I can go is the feet of my Father, where I receive His healing.
I felt pressed to share with you this morning, and ask you to seek out where His protection has been your lifeline, in the past, present and to look for it from here on out. He is GOOD and His love ENDURES.