I was starting to get bogged down with the business of publishing last week, so yesterday I decided to take a break from all that and get my creative juices flowing again. I am about halfway through a really intense story that I’ve been writing for a year and for the past few months, I just haven’t had anything to give it. I would really like to break through with that manuscript and get it finished, but the timing isn’t right. I knew when I started writing it that it would be years before I finished it. So instead of tackling that one, I opened up a file that I’d started out of boredom one night last year and began re-reading it to see if I could keep going with it or not. It’s definitely a work in progress, but I’m excited that I’ve tripled it’s length as of tonight, and I have a definitive vision for it, though it’s definitely not what I’d originally thought it would be.
In some ways, when I write, I feel like I am playing God. I can start out with a plan in mind, but characters always twist and turn, and as they develop into who they are as (fictional) human beings, it’s as if they have a free will, in that, I have to be true to the character. I can’t make them do or say something that they wouldn’t do or say if they were alive. So that keeps things interesting, and also leaves a lot of room for people to misunderstand or judge the way that I write. At this point though, I’m not making any apologies. I’m nothing if not a realist, and the last thing I want to do is write something cheesy and unrelatable.
So even though this plot is taking a course I’ve never traveled before, I know that it’s going in the right direction, and that if I tried to move it any other way, it would be cheapened and I’d rather delete the whole thing than do that!
Care to follow me?