The other day when I felt so inspired (thank you Bono), I sat down and started to write. I had a plot, but I wasn’t married to it. I wasn’t excited about it, and in fact at times I was annoyed, frustrated and exhausted by it. Through a few days of processing I wondered if maybe it could be something that just… scratched the itch for me when I needed it. It may never see print, I may never finish it, but it’s there, for whenever I feel the need to write, I can write that story. It’s not important, it doesn’t have an overwhelming message, at this point, it’s not the epic love story that I felt like I had in me, I just needed to write, so I did.
Today, I was driving home from grocery shopping, through treacherous, icy and slushy roads, and a sweet song came across the radio. I confess, I listen to the Christian Radio Station here. To some it’s not a big deal, to me it is because I really really dislike the cheese factor in most Christian music, but at the same time, just like it advertises, it’s safe and fun for the whole family, and it honestly does make a difference in my spirit. I’m shaking my head as I type this. So anyway, this song came on (video below) and though I’ve heard it a hundred times, I really listened to the words this time, because I wanted to hear them clearly.
Suddenly, as I belted out harmonies to the chorus, the roads disappeared, the snow was no longer a fear, and I was catapulted into that epic romance that I knew I had brewing inside of me. I think the Lord took over the car for a few seconds because my eyes went glassy as I realized what the story would be, and how hard it would be to write, and how beautiful it would be when it was all said and done.
Then I “woke up” and finished my scary drive home, with a new excitement inside of me, because this time it wasn’t forced. It had just come to me, like all the others had, and I wasn’t trying to make something out of nothing.
This one is going to be really difficult to write. It’s going to require me to really hear the Father’s heart, and be in tune with the kind of Dad he is in situations that I’ve never been in. But He’s put it in my heart to write it, so I know that He’ll see me through it. I’m excited, but at the same time, I’m not desperate to get this one pounded out. It will take time, and I’m looking forward to the process.
A little interesting tidbit, a friend actually sent me this song about a year ago, and I listened to it once and thought “that’s sweet.” Then months later when I heard it on the radio, it didn’t ring any bells until all the sudden one day I thought, “I bet this is that song…” but I never remembered to double check. So tonight I did double check, and it was the same song. He never said why he thought I’d like it, it was kind of strange given the message of the song and the fact that he is my husband’s best friend, but something urged him to send it to me, and I can only think that it was laying the groundwork for what came about in my heart today. I love the way the Father works these things out. Enjoy the song!